tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13654653082135922192024-03-13T14:51:40.285-04:00A Little ItchyCuring incurable eczema caused by topical steroidsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-69273789974530572842014-11-18T10:23:00.002-05:002014-11-18T10:23:31.460-05:00Day 922 (or 2 years, 6 months, 8 days)It's been a while. Let's see...<br />
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I got promoted.<br />
I moved in with my boyfriend.<br />
We got engaged.<br />
I lost 25 lbs.<br />
We got married.<br />
We went to Aruba.<br />
(I gained 10 lbs back. Thanks all-inclusive resort with your endless drinks!)<br />
Other random good things happened.<br />
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And for the most part...<br />
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My skin wasn't much of an issue.<br />
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I have a little redness on my neck and a spot on the inner arm and occasionally a small patch on my chin but here's what makes it different:<br />
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<b>For the most part, I'm the one doing it.</b><br />
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It's not completely random like it was in the throws of TSW. It happens when I'm stressed/worried/bored and start scratching (mindless action like biting your nails). It also happens when I eat way too much junk food. I found out that my body likes the low-carb high-fat way of eating so when I ignore that and eat high-carb, my skin generally reminds me the next day.<br />
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<b>This was not the case when I was 6 months, 1 year, 1.5 years into TSW. </b><br />
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I know a lot of the traditional eczema patient literature likes to blame it on the patient ("Oh, your skin is red because you keep scratching so it can't heal! It's the itch-scratch-cycle!") and I know a lot of the TSW conversations about nutrition like to blame it all on food or needing certain vitamins ("Oh, your skin is red because you occasionally have a glass of wine and sometimes you eat Taco Bell! Here, try all these random vitamins and supplements that may vaguely be related to this!!").<br />
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I did not find either pieces of advice to be helpful during TSW. It was truly random and awful. Trying to simply "not scratch" was not an option. Trying special diets or supplements or moisturizers only to see no difference or be unable to stick with the regimen was discouraging. It was absolutely devastating to search for a cause when, in reality, flares were something that could not be controlled.<br />
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Here's where I say: <b>This is just my experience. </b>I know others have written about doing XYZ things and how in their opinion, it helped/hindered TSW. I know others feel worse when they seemingly sit around and do nothing. They have to try, after all. You can't just watch your house burn down with the vague hope that it will rebuild itself, right?<br />
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I understand that feeling. I felt that feeling. The "I have to do <b>something ANYTHING</b>." But in my experience: I could not control flares. I could try to avoid things that made my skin burn or itch <i>more </i>and increased the severity of the flare, but I wasn't stopping a flare that was already happening.<br />
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There was a cycle I experienced for a while:<br />
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<li>There is nothing I can do about flares. Hopeless. I am stuck in this awful itchy painful red reality.</li>
<li>I must try everything I reasonably can try. Hopeful. This could be the key to unlocking my misery.</li>
<li>This thing I've been trying is not working. I'm miserable. This will never end. There is nothing I can do. Hopeless.</li>
<li>This other thing might work. I have to try it. Hopeful again!</li>
<li>It didn't work. Now I'm even worse. Hopeless.</li>
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This cycle only made a miserable situation worse. I had to get out of this cycle. I did this by:<br />
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<li>Accepting that I could not control flares</li>
<li>Accepting that my body knows what to do even if it takes a long time to heal</li>
<li>Accepting that every flare is a sign that my body is healing even if it is an awful process</li>
<li>Accepting that just like ocean tides, flares would come and go</li>
<li>Accepting that this was just a season and it would eventually turn</li>
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<br />Come Let Go by Xavier Rudd became my anthem in a way. This song helped me calm down in a flare and reminded me that this was just a season, just a wave hitting the sand before eventually going out again. <i>"Come the wind, come the rain // Come the tide in, come the tide out again."</i><br /><br />Now things are different. My skin no longer flares. It is different. And I don't think it's surprising that <b>now</b> there actually is a connection between what I do (mindless scratching, too much sugar) and my skin's appearance. <b>That wasn't the case before.</b> Then, there was no cause, not really. It happened or it didn't. Now I'm in a different season. Things are different. Things are better.</div>
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<br /><span id="goog_1305192167"></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-8359930766396627342014-04-30T15:24:00.003-04:002014-04-30T15:24:46.297-04:00Color My SymptomsI found it really hard to describe my progress in TSW at some points. I wanted to find a pattern and finding a pattern required gathering data...but most of the time, all I was really left with "better than yesterday" or "worse than yesterday." At some point, I started doing these:<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Topical Steroid Usage<br />Dark Green: LOTS!<br />Lighter Green: Less</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Topical Steroid Withdrawal Symptoms<br />September 2012 -- 4 Months Off TS<br /><br />Red: Most Severe<br />Darker Pink: Medium<br />Light Pink: Low</td></tr>
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<i>During the summer of 2013 (mid-June to early-September), my skin was all clear and happy! Then the weather turned and although my skin was less happy, it was nowhere near as bad as before. </i><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Topical Steroid Withdrawal Symptoms<br />December 2013 --1 Year, 6 Months Off TS<br /><br />Red: Most Severe<br />Darker Pink: Medium<br />Light Pink: Low</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Topical Steroid Withdrawal Symptoms<br />Beginning of April 2014 -- 1 Year, 11 Months Off TS<br /><br />Red: Most Severe<br />Darker Pink: Medium<br />Light Pink: Low<br /><br /><i>Barely pink, itches sometimes.</i></td></tr>
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So that's where I currently am. The weather is starting to warm up and I'm already seeing improvements in those little spots that bothered me at the beginning of April. I have to be honest, though, I am anxious that this is going to be a lifelong trend of "winter :( summer :)" which I really don't want. I want year-round :) but I just will have to wait and see, I guess.<br />
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Also if you want your own coloring person, this is the one I used:<br />
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I found it off a Google search for coloring page people, then I just opened up MS Paint and colored it in. I wish I had done this monthly or weekly as it really helps me "gauge" and see the bigger picture.</div>
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-76966827540875927492014-01-08T17:13:00.003-05:002014-11-18T10:30:02.937-05:0020 Months (I Think?)<span style="font-family: inherit;">Just a little update since I haven't been around too much...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">When the weather got colder again this fall, my skin went back to being stupid. I have red rashy hands, inner arms, face, and neck. It sucks, I feel ugly, but it's not nearly as bad as before and I don't have any of those other symptoms other than some itchiness (which is not as bad as before). Given what I know about TSW, it's of course very likely that the summer was just a break and right now is just a flare and I'll eventually get longer and longer breaks until there are no more flares. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But I also wonder if maybe the damage from the topical steroids has mostly healed and I might still be left with that genetic predisposition to get a rash when something [cold weather, junk food, too much sugar, too much dust, whatever] triggers my immune system. Since I was going to change my diet anyway (what with a wedding dress to fit into and all) (oh, yeah, I'm getting married this summer!) and I know my skin gets much worse lately when I have lots of sugar, eat junk, and drink alcohol, it just made sense for me to focus on something that eliminates some of the more common potential irritants. I'll be doing a Whole 30 challenge. I'm on Day 3 and it's going pretty well but it does require a LOT of prep-work. </span></div>
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Lots of TSW-people say that nutrition makes no difference, and for the most part, I agree. But since this "flare" feels different than the others, I figured it's a worth a try to see if it's less of a TSW-flare and more of an eczema-related flare. And, like I said, I've been working my way up to changing my diet, eliminating gluten, dairy, sugar, etc., for a while now. I do not consider this a hardship. Lots of TSW-people say not to eliminate "comfort" food because you're already miserable from TSW and I totally 100% agreed in my early days of TSW. NO WAY could have I undertaken a major nutrition overhaul since I started TSW! Remember all that prep-work I mentioned? No way could I have managed all that when I was itchyitchitchy 24/7 and exhausted all the time. </div>
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However, now I am at a point where I am ready, I feel capable of doing this, and I believe this is the right thing for me to do right now. My TSW (or eczema?) rashes are ugly and slightly uncomfortable but not life-altering, so I can handle the extra challenge.</div>
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I have also stopped using moisturizers. The only 'improvement' that I have seen (it's been about a month) is that my red rashy areas are slightly less red, more ashy. But the other night I decided to try one of my homemade body butters (it's just shea butter and coconut oil whipped together) and while it was fine when I applied it, my skin felt very sunburnt the next day. So for right now, I'm not using moisturizer. It feels right.</div>
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So that's what's going on with me! Oh, and wedding planning. :)</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-77920244932704830582013-10-17T23:17:00.002-04:002013-10-17T23:40:17.915-04:0018 MonthsFor the past week or so, my inner arms have been itchy and a bit pink. My neck and forehead have also been itchy. Those are the only spots with itch so my fingers are crossed it will stop here. The itch is not really that bad (compared to a few months ago!) but it's annoying. I've been trying my best to not scratch since that obviously will make the skin redder and damages the skin. I've been really stressed out the past couple weeks so I think that's contributing to it...maybe I'll always have some atopic tendencies...maybe it's the weather...maybe it's just a little fizzle of TSW...who knows?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-25747769151518594912013-09-28T16:06:00.002-04:002013-09-28T16:06:21.072-04:00Words of Wisdom<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
To all of those going through TSW, this is a good thing to keep in mind:</div>
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-87371776986145304222013-09-23T12:03:00.004-04:002013-09-23T12:03:50.287-04:0017 MonthsMy skin is still good and so am I! The only thing I have noticed in the past week is that my lymph nodes in my neck are a little swollen -- not as badly as during the earlier months of TSW, but more than normal. I know I have been very stressed, not going to bed as early as I should, and not eating as well as I'd like. Hopefully it's related to those issues and not a sign of an upcoming flare. Fingers crossed!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-84057681003669151112013-08-21T13:57:00.003-04:002013-08-21T13:57:50.829-04:00A Thousand Words<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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You can click for the full-size image.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-85234515438559141882013-08-07T12:18:00.002-04:002013-08-07T12:18:54.127-04:00454 Days Off Topical SteroidsOh, hey!<br />
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What's up?<br />
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Haven't been in here a while.<br />
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I guess that's a good thing. :)<br />
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So since the last time I wrote anything, my little bits of rashiness have slowly faded away. Now I just get a teensy tiny barely bit of a flare around That Time of the Month and that's it. Barely anything and is less and less each month so I'm sure eventually it will be nothing.<br />
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I have gotten back to working out, which makes me really happy. About two months before I started TSW, I had started going to a bootcamp-type gym and, well, obviously that ended once I started TSW. As most people who go through TSW know, the last thing you feel like doing is a work-out! So although I did not gain any weight during TSW (yay! although seriously the LEAST of my concerns during TSW), I still have my pre-TSW weight to work on. I am signed up for a 5k at the end of this month and I've been using the Get Running app. I ran! And got sweaty! (Which, as most TSWers know, is a miracle in itself!) My skin does get really really red during my runs but to be honest, I am very pale and very out of shape, so I think it probably has more to do with that than corticosteroid damage. I am also working on eating healthier which I will be posting about at my other blog (<a href="http://wholefoodhips.blogspot.com/">link if you're interested</a>).<br />
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My skin is a tiny little itty bitty bit drier on my arms than a normal person, but the rest of my skin is perfect. My arms are less dry than they were a couple months ago so I'm sure they will catch up. And honestly, it's barely anything. I'm probably the only one who notices and that's just because I'm so used to examining every detail of my skin!<br />
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A random little thing I've recently realized is that I don't have dandruff anymore. I actually forgot I had dandruff, since TSW turned my whole body into a flake-nado! But in retrospect, I don't think I ever had dandruff. It was just dry skin caused by all the TSA nonsense. I had a flaky scalp for as long as I can remember, no shampoo helped, not even the medicated stuff. Super embarrassing at the salon! Now it's gone. Oh and I used to get really bad scalp itch on the back of my head. Not anymore.<br />
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I do not use any moisturizer. I do not need any moisturizer, lotion, potions, creams. This is crazy to me. If you knew the number of moisturizers and lotions I've tried on my face since I was about 12 years old...! All with no success, no help to tame the dry desert that was my skin pre-TSW. The only products I use on my skin are some makeup (normal drug store brand, just concealer under my eyes, blush, and eye makeup) and EVOO to wash off the makeup. None of it stings or bothers me. My makeup doesn't flake off, either. And when I don't wear makeup, it's okay, too!<br />
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It's freeing to walk through a store, to see all the ads and commercials for skin products and now that I don't need any of them!<br />
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Oh and I wore a strapless dress in public. No big deal...<br />
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My normal pasty pale ghost white skin is back! Oh, and you may not know this about me, but I am TAN right now. I know. It doesn't look like it, but I am! I also wore a (different) sleeveless dress to a wedding two weeks ago and did not even realize or think about my skin until a couple days later when I did laundry. <i>I wore a sleeveless dress in public without a sweater! And without any worries! And with NO ITCHING.</i><br />
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This time last year, my wardrobe was a bit different...<br />
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Despite the summer heat, I was freezing all the time all the time. I was wearing several shirts (1-2 tank tops, a short sleeved shirt, a long-sleeved shirt, and sometimes even a sweater or hoodie) AT THE SAME TIME, a scarf, a pair of heavy jeans, knee socks or tights, wraps or bandages around my arms, hair up so it wouldn't tickle my neck and make me itchy...oh, and about 6 lbs of moisturizer a day! Wearing all those clothes also helped me try to avoid scratching. (<i>Try </i>being the keyword since it was impossible to avoid it, but it definitely slowed it down!) And of course, long sleeves and jeans hid my awful skin from the world.<br />
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I have tons of pictures that I need to sort through and upload so hopefully I will get that done soon. I think I am mostly almost all the way healed. I'm not ready to call it yet, though. I am concerned about the autumn/winter, since cold weather makes even normal skin act up. I guess we'll have to wait and see. Until further notice, I am back to my normal life! (Or as normal as it gets, anyway. :) )Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-49440793387259745252013-06-27T22:14:00.001-04:002013-06-27T22:14:03.417-04:00Things I NoticeI'm going on a little weekend getaway and I'm packing for my flight. I'm packing my little 3-1-1 liquid bag and I realized that...<br />
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There is nothing in it for eczema.<br />
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Or TSW.<br />
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A little thing of EVOO to wash my face with, contact solution, makeup, conditioner, hair product...<br />
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Pre-TSW I would have been struggling with all the lotions and potions I used to keep my skin from being too dry...I also would have packed a tube of topical steroids...I would not have packed sundresses and shorts, either!<br />
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During the really bad part of TSW, I would have been on Google trying to find out if Vaseline counts as a liquid and if I bring a homemade cream in a unmarked jar, would that look suspicious to airport security? And frankly, I probably would be a wreck right now and ready to cancel my trip, too scared of getting crazy itchy on the plane, not having my usual creature comforts (like a bathtub, an ice pack, a bucket of palm oil) to get me through the itch, totally exhausted from not getting enough sleep. I would be packing one of my giant men's button down shirts that I often slept in.<br />
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But instead...<br />
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I'm just packing normal things -- well, I guess some people would not consider the EVOO or the Primal Pit Paste to be "normal" toiletries, but a giant family-size jar of Vaseline would definitely be less normal! I'm more worried about my carry-on being small enough than needing to manically claw up my skin on the plane, trying to squash the itch that cannot be caught.<br />
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I'm not totally healed, but my skin is okay enough and my life is pretty normal. Seemed impossible six months ago.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-29607756061382929402013-06-20T11:02:00.003-04:002013-06-24T13:53:39.220-04:001 Year, 2 Months: Almost There!I haven't posted anything in a long time, because really there's not too much to say! Which is good. My skin is generally okay - still have a little bit of rashiness on my wrists, inside arm, and behind the knees, but nothing bad. I'm actually wearing short sleeves sometimes! My arms are a little drier than they should be but it's more of an ashy texture than the really tight, cracked, flaking skin of earlier.<br />
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I am not using any moisturizer. Although my arms are drier than I'd like, I found that basically anything I'd put on them would just make them red and/or itchy. Since I don't have any issues with the skin being too tight/painful from the dryness, I just gave up. My face is sometimes a little dry in places, but no big. Actually the texture is better than when I was on TS, so that's a big win! No redness whatsoever. I use EVOO to wash my face and that's about it.<br />
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As far as quality of life goes, TSW hasn't slowed me down in a very long time. Which is great! I am back to sweating like a mostly normal person. I started working out again and it hasn't sent me into flares -- I get really red during it but not itchy and it goes away once I cool down. I am wearing makeup again without any issues. I am making sure to get some sun, too! I was able to cut my hair shorter now that my neck won't be bothered by it. During the really bad TSW my hair was almost always up because otherwise it tickled and made my neck itch like crazy.<br />
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Here are some comparison pictures of my face. I don't have too many because I hate taking selfies and I feel dumb asking someone to please take a picture of my itchy un-made-up face. But here are a couple I could find, all are without makeup or photoshop. In the pictures, you can't see the texture -- the first two, my skin was both very very very tight and very very very dry.<br />
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In the first one, I kind of look like I'd gotten too much sun but that was definitely NOT the case since I was hiding in the house as much as possible. I was RED, redder even than this picture shows. My smile was definitely forced -- what you can't see is that I was absolutely miserable that day. It was very hot but I was freezing -- which is a hard feeling to explain, like I KNEW the weather was warm, I felt that it was warm, but I couldn't stop shivering. My skin was burning and itching. I was at a family event and trust me, I would definitely have preferred to be in the bath. And I was red pretty much everywhere! I'm wearing a long sleeve button down and kept trying to pulling the sleeves down over my monster hands. I was VERY self-conscious - please don't look at me, please stop taking pictures, can I go home and hide now?<br />
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In the second one, my face was less red, less itchy, but still very tight and dry. Still a bit of a forced smile because my skin was so tight it hurt! I was out at a sports bar for the big game with a group of people. Some I didn't know so I was very self-conscious to meet new people. I went to the bathroom a bunch of times just to scratch and put lotion on to try and tame some of the facial flakiness. I have a bit of a crustache going on, my neck was so tight it was hard to move my head, and I was wearing four layers of clothes because I was so freezing cold!<br />
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In the last one, my skin is pretty much normal! Yay! I only thought about my skin for a few seconds, because my eyes looked tired and I wanted to put concealer on (but didn't have any). I didn't think of any TSW-related issues at all. I was meeting a friend's new baby. When I met another friend's new baby a couple weeks prior, I was self-conscious holding the baby because my hands were so red. But I actually didn't think anything of it this time around. I'm still wearing a cardigan, but at least I'm not wearing a million layers of clothes like other times!<br />
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So that's my current status. I think I'm like 85% healed...hard to put a number on it, but when I compare where I was to where I am, I'm doing great! I think the summer sun will help me kick the last of it and hopefully I'll be able to wear a fun party dress on my birthday in October without thinking of my skin at all!<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-74237699445512398992013-04-04T13:42:00.002-04:002013-04-04T13:42:42.954-04:00Day 329: Red Hands!!The past couple of days, my hands have been super lobster red. Just the top, not the palms, and they aren't any itchier than usual, but they're so bright! I don't like it! >:-(Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-60155608807457064302013-03-22T11:52:00.001-04:002013-03-22T11:53:16.576-04:00Hate This Cortizone-10 Commercial!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I am so tired of seeing this commercial every time I watch TV. Cortizone-10 will NOT heal eczema! Cortizone-10 has hydrocortisone (also known as a topical steroid) in it and will only temporarily suppress the symptoms of eczema. And, as most people reading this already know, should NOT be used long-term! It will cause topical steroid addiction and worsening eczema.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-76407152562856752172013-03-20T12:59:00.000-04:002013-08-07T12:23:04.210-04:00Day 314: The Stagnant Phase<span style="font-family: inherit;">I updated my layout so check it out if you're seeing this through an RSS reader! :)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I haven't been posting very much because there isn't much to say, which is a good thing. I'm currently in a stagnate phase - my skin doesn't look perfect or completely normal but it's livable. On the ITSAN group, Kelly P described the stagnant phase like this:</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px;">Stagnation is definitely part of TSW. What I seemed to experience later on was that my eczema was "cured" but I was left with months of Steroid Damaged Skin (dry, flaky, saggy, pink itchy--but no eczema). I describe this as one's skin being free of addiction to steroids, but not free of the long term damage that the skin takes time to heal from. Everyday though in SMALL steps your skin will continue to improve: returning moisture, smoothness, flexibility, proper color, itch free, tightening sags, etc. This is a long process from start to finish, but you will get healed all the way. Hang in there!</span></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: inherit;">There have been improvements - the thing is, it happens so slowly that I don't notice it unless I sit down and think about it. I talked to <a href="http://pinklikeabeacon.wordpress.com/">Leslie from Pink Like a Beacon</a> about my current skin condition and that allowed me to notice all the things that have gotten better.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">I have two settings - "okay" and "flare." </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;">"<b>Okay</b>"</span> right now is not 100% normal perfect skin, but it is okay. It's livable and doesn't distract me from my life. This is about 90% of the time so I'll talk about that first.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Skin Color: </b>During this time, my skin is not bright scary red like it has been in the past. The red skin is either gone (face, stomach, legs), very light pink (arms, neck, chest), or a deeper pink (wrist & top of hands). My palms are completely clear.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Itch:</b> The itch is so much better during my "okay" time. It's not constant and it's much easier to ignore most of the time. I don't have that uncontrollable need to scratch. Generally I don't notice or can ignore it. When I start to focus on my skin and think about it too much, though, I start noticing more little itches all over. Even then, it is not like the intense deep itch from earlier in TSW and I can either take my mind off those little itches or sooth it by just rubbing the skin a little without using nails. </span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Dryness: </b>My skin is not as dry or tight. I don't need Vaseline to turn my neck anymore! I can open and close my hands without pain from tight skin. I am currently using Vaseline mixed with palm oil (1:1) or <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Hand-Body-Lotion-Aloe-Ounces/dp/B00153BLLI/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1363796230&sr=8-1&keywords=neemaura+lotion">Neemaura Hand & Body Lotion</a> that <a href="http://redskinsyndrome.squarespace.com/">Joey</a> found. I use one of these in the morning and before bed/after a shower. Sometimes if I get fidgety or anxious, I scratch my hands out of habit even if they weren't itchy in the first place. When this happens, I try to catch myself and use some lotion to distract myself. Other than this, I don't need to use anything - the skin isn't painfully tight anymore. The texture is still on the drier side in most places but it's not so bad. My palms are super soft and completely normal. The skin on my palms is actually softer than I can ever remember having!</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Flakiness:</b> My skin is still on the drier side but nothing like before. It used to be visibly flaking - often in big flakes - but now I only have that issue on my wrists, tops of hands, and a little around my mouth and my hairline. The rest of my skin is either mostly normal texture (stomach and legs) or ashy/powdery. I started using a body brush in the morning before getting dressed. I don't know if it helps with the lymph like people claim, but it gets rid of all that powdery dead skin. I think it might also help with the itch a little because (1) it's a good, non-damaging way to scratch all over and (2) I think dead skin lingering on the skin makes me itchy. </span></li>
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<i><span style="background-color: #eeeeee; color: #cc0000; font-family: inherit;">I would NOT recommend trying a body brush if your skin is raw in any way. That would hurt!</span></i></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Long Baths:</b> No baths at all! I haven't taken a bath in at least a month. Even before that, baths had gotten sporadic and shorter since the start of 2013 (month 9ish). I shower, of course, but like a normal person! </span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Rawness/Ooze:</b> I don't have any raw spots, tiny blisters, peeling skin, or oozing. I had some issues with the skin behind my ears and my earlobes up until Decemberish, but haven't had any issues since.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Swelling:</b> No swollen eyes since October. I think my swollen fingers are starting to shrink, too. I never had swelling in my legs/feet (that I noticed). My lymph nodes are going down/mostly gone. There was one in particular in my neck that I have been "monitoring" since October and now I can barely find it.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Nerves:</b> I haven't experienced nerve zaps very often in the past few months, just a couple times here and there. It's more annoying that anything else.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Elephant Skin: </b>The rolls of "elephant skin" are gone, just a little bit around my wrists. Since I scratch my wrists and hands the most, this makes sense. Also my skin isn't lichenified anymore.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Sleep: </b>My sleeping pattern is totally normal (or would be, if I didn't let myself stay up too late). I don't have up-all-night scratchfests during "okay" days.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;">"<b>Flares</b>" </span>only last a day or two and they are significantly better than what I experienced earlier in TSW. These f<span style="font-family: inherit;">lares are more subtle and don't knock me on my butt like before. There's really only two things that happen: redness and itching.</span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Skin Color: </b>The skin becomes redder. The light pink & deeper pink areas become a brighter, angrier red. The skin that's normal colored becomes a light pink. </span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Itch:</b> The itch increases. It goes from "can mostly ignore" to "really REALLY intense and needs scratched ASAP." Even though itching during a flare is much worse than my "okay" days, it's still much better than earlier in TSW. I can usually (though not always!) control the scratching and just rub or tickle the skin instead of tearing at it with my nails or something scratchy.</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b style="color: black; line-height: normal;">Sleep: </b>I haven't had many itchy nights during my flares. Last month, I just had 2 and so far only 1 this month. And even these are more manageable, since a quick shower is usually all I need to break the cycle.</span></li>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;">So that's where I'm at right now! Not so bad, could be a little better, someday will be better! I am definitely ready for some sun - actually went to a tanning bed yesterday for a couple minutes. I know it's not as good as the sun, but seeing as how it's 35* and cloudy here, it's better than nothing! My skin was warm to the touch after and a teensy bit pink after tanning but a few hours later, it was back to its "okay" state.</span><br />
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<b><i>If you are going through TSW, how's it going today? Have you seen any improvements or is it still early on for you?</i></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: black; font-size: small;"><br /></span><span style="color: black; font-size: small;">I also wanted to mention this article from Dermatology Times, although you've probably seen it if you are in the ITSAN forum. It's a great article, though, and definitely a good resource if you're dealing with a skeptical doctor.</span><span style="font-size: small;"> </span><span style="background-color: transparent; line-height: 17px;"><a href="http://dermatologytimes.modernmedicine.com/news/topical-corticosteroid-addiction-may-be-blame-when-rash-defies-treatment">Topical corticosteroid addiction may be to blame when 'rash' defies treatment</a> by Paula Moyer.</span></span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-44764393572504255252013-02-23T12:00:00.000-05:002013-02-26T15:12:06.392-05:00Day 289: Look Ma, No Rash! (photos)A few months back, I visited my GP for the first time since starting TSW. <a href="http://alittleitchy.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-106.html">You can read about it here</a>, but in a nutshell she said I either have really bad eczema and possibly ringworm on my abdomen. I still make the o_O face whenever I think about that because what I had looked <i>nothing</i> like ringworm. Ringworm has...you know...a <i>ring</i>.<br />
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What I had did NOT look like that at all. The <a href="http://alittleitchy.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-120.html">derm said it was eczema</a> and even took a biopsy to "prove" it to me. It came back as <i>spongiotic dermatitis</i> which is typical for Red Skin Syndrome patients. It's just another word for eczema/atopic dermatitis. Another word for "you have a rash, I don't know why, but it's not contagious."<br />
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I was four months in when I saw these doctors and since then, I've watched the rash on my stomach/side slowly shrink and lighten up to an almost normal skin tone (which for me is ghostly white). The other day while getting dressed, I noticed it was barely visible! Before and current pictures after the jump...!<br />
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I actually forgot just how angry my skin looked then until I looked at the old picture. The picture on the left is from month 4 and the rash was all over my sides and stomach. It itched like crazy then hurt even worse when I scratched it. It sucked! I am glad it's gotten so much better and all I did was...nothing. NOTHING! I just stopped using topical steroids and waited for my skin to do its thing. If I had any doubts about having topical steroid-induced eczema, they are gone now when I see these pictures! Can't wait until all of me is a before-and-after! </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-59602258024780027042013-02-08T13:07:00.000-05:002013-02-20T11:47:02.368-05:00Day 274: What's Luck Got To Do Got To Do With It?If my skin were a baby, it would be born now. Nine months seems significant and for some reason, seems like it should hold some kind of finality for this journey. All I have been doing is watching every cell of my skin reddened then flake off, again and again and again, for the past nine months...but it's not done yet. It's no longer the ONLY thing on my mind, but it's certainly the #1 thing on my mind and I am sure I have wasted countless hours thinking about it, reading about it, trying to do something about it, itching from it, and hurting from it.<br />
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If you are starting TSW, there is one thing I can say for sure: you will put a time frame on it no matter how many times you are told, "Don't put a time frame on it." You will think you will probably be one of the lucky six month healers. You will think that by doing X, Y, or Z, you will be able to speed it up. You will think that it could not possibly take <b>that</b> long because <b>nothing</b> takes that long nowadays. You will think that if a whole person can get created and built in nine months, your new skin couldn't possibly take <i>that </i>long.<br />
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You might not ever verbalize this, you might say you agree that it's impossible to know how long this will take and that you know you're in for the long haul...but deep deep deep down inside, in your heart of heart, secret of secret, <b>you will</b> <b>hope to be lucky. </b><br />
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I hoped to be lucky. I still hope to be lucky. And at the same time: I <i>am</i> lucky. After years and years of thinking I was just <i>one of the unlucky broken ones</i>, cursed for no rhyme or reason with horrible incurable eczema, I found out that I'm <b>not broken</b>. A little poisoned and worse for the wear, maybe, but nothing that some time (a lot of time) won't (eventually) heal. I'm lucky because my health and skin problems stemmed from something that can be changed. I can be fixed. This is not life long. This is not incurable. This is not permanently scaring. This is not fatal.<br />
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This isn't to trivialize the hell we go through, all the miserable hours spent itching and crying. There is something to be said for the anger and desperation and mental exhaustion and emotional breakdowns that we go through again and again while healing from topical steroid damage. When you're at your lowest of lows, it's hard to hang onto the prize at the end of this race. When you think you've hit rock bottom only to fall another hundred feet, it's awfully hard to imagine that you're lucky. You don't feel very lucky. You feel miserable and you wonder if it's ever going to end. Guess what? <b>It will</b>. It will end and <i>that's</i> what makes you lucky.<br />
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<b>I'm lucky</b>.<br />
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There's a reason why people tell you to not put a time frame on it. <b>It takes as long as it takes. It's done when it's done.</b> And there's not much you can do about that. I thought I would be done at six months, too. I thought I would be lucky and yet...here I am. This is not meant to discourage anyone - it gets better the longer you are off topical steroids. Month 6 is better than month 3 and month 9 is better than month 6.<br />
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You'll have a better handle on what makes you feel better, you'll have (mostly) accepted that whatever happens will happen, and you'll have (mostly) stopped fighting the process. You'll probably have seen visible progress so you know that even if you flare again or even if you flare regularly, you know the process -- flare then calmer, again and again. But even though it's better, it's not done. Pink is better than red but pink is not the color I'm supposed to be. Dry is better than itchy but dry is not the way my skin is supposed to be. Waking up once or twice a night to scratch is better than being unable to sleep at all but sleeping with no problem is the way it should be. Itchy sometimes is better than itchy all the time but... Better is not <b>done</b>. Healing is not <b>healed</b>.<br />
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And so you hope to be lucky. Everyone hopes to be lucky. But you <b>are </b>lucky. You know what the problem is, how to fix it, that it can be fixed.<br />
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Whenever I wander onto an eczema website or forum or blog, I am struck by the despair I feel from every one of those posts. I know that probably sounds over dramatic to people without skin issues - after all, it's <i>just skin</i>. It's <i>just cosmetic</i>. To those people, I would say spend twenty minutes reading <i>anything</i> by a chronic eczema patient. It's not cosmetic. It's not superficial. There's pain and itch and cracked skin and rashes and more itching but beyond those physical symptoms...<br />
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<i>Eczema becomes you. </i>It's the face you show the show the world, the hand you shake with, the arms you hug with. When you're covered in ugly rashes, you are ugly. You worry about what every new person thinks when they see you, you don't let people get very close because they'll see just how flaky and dry you are, you avoid holding hands or giving high fives, you try to be invisible because <i>all you are is ugly</i>. It consumes you. You waste time and money and tears visiting numerous doctors and dermatologists and allergists, only to be told three things: one, that you have incurable chronic eczema that will never get any better; two, you must control it with topical steroids; and three, you must be doing X-Y-Z if it gets worse.<br />
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X-Y-Z are the things that every magazine article about eczema will advise you to change. You take too many hot showers, you don't eat healthy enough, you aren't taking your vitamins, you need to moisturize every two hours, you have the wrong shampoo, you live in the wrong climate, you go outside when it's cold, you go outside when it's hot, you have carpets, you have pets, you must be allergic to something, you get too stressed, you use the wrong soap, you wash dishes without wearing gloves, you swim without rinsing off the chlorine, you use makeup with too many chemicals, on and on. X-Y-Z are all things you have been doing since you became one of the unlucky ones but doctors can offer no better advice than Cosmo for your $170 visit fee.<br />
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How could you <b>not</b> feel despair? Hundreds of people that are told day in and day out by supposed experts that they will never get better...but also that it's their own fault. Told they will never get better...but here's a list of things they should be doing if they want to be better.<br />
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All the while, they are being treated by the cause of the eczema. They are smearing on the poison that causes the pain, looking despairingly for a cure that will not be found in a pharmacy.<br />
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<b>I know it's not my fault. I know I will get better. This makes me <u><i>lucky</i></u>.</b><br />
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We don't know how long topical steroid withdrawal will take. It gets exhausting and painful. It's a long night with no sign of morning in sight and yet you hold on, maybe just by a thread, to the hope of dawn. Try not to give too much weight to what month it is or pin hope to a certain date. At the end of the day, the only way out is through. There are no road signs and sometimes the road isn't paved.<b> </b>We know there's a light at the end of the tunnel, even though we don't how far the exit is.<br />
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<b>It takes as long as it takes. It's done when it's done.</b>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-72290454983961788002013-01-23T12:48:00.000-05:002013-02-20T11:45:25.988-05:00Day 258: Food and TSW (Just My Opinions)Here is what I think about topical steroid withdrawal and diet:<br />
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<li>If you are allergic to something, don't eat it.</li>
<li>If something makes you feel bad, don't eat it.</li>
<li>Vegetables are great. Eat a lot.</li>
<li>Fruits are good. Eat some.</li>
<li>If your food doesn't go bad, it's probably bad for you.</li>
<li>Yes, we all agree that the Standard American Diet is bad.</li>
<li>Yes, you should eat more real food in general. </li>
<li>No, I don't think my diet has a thing to do with my flares. I have tried really hard to find a connection and you know what? I can't. </li>
<li>If you can find a connection and eliminating that item makes you feel better, then go ahead and do it. That doesn't mean everyone else should do the same.</li>
<li>No, I don't think diet can "cure" topical steroid withdrawal.</li>
<li>Yes, I think it can help true eczema <b>if </b>your eczema is caused by food allergy/sensitive. </li>
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<i>Disclaimer: </i>Obviously, these are just my opinions and you probably have other opinions. Personally, I don't care what anyone eats. I am just tired of reading all the theories on diet and topical steroid withdrawal. It seems like every question or conversation has "Eliminate this, that, and the other! Don't eat nightshades! Drink raw milk! Nothing spicy! No, wait, don't drink milk, be vegan! Actually, eat lots of organic beef! You know what, just don't eat anything - only drink water!!"</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-83979384802619889502013-01-14T16:37:00.001-05:002013-01-14T16:41:31.868-05:00Day 249: Slowly But Surely<div style="margin: 0; overflow: hidden; padding: 0; width: 500px;">
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<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/45811109@N05/sets/72157632524602280/">RSS Left Palm</a>, a set on Flickr.</div>
There hasn't been really too much to post about lately. I feel like I've mostly got this thing under control - knock on wood! Some days I feel a lot of pain/soreness but it's mostly doable and I haven't needed to take pain medication very often. Mostly I'm just tired of this (especially the shedding!!) and I'm ready to have normal skin!<br />
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I have been taking photos throughout this whole thing and I am going to slowly work on getting them uploaded and organized into Flickr. Here is my left hand palm starting September to today. These are just pictures from my phone but I know I have more on my camera so I am going to probably add those later today. I tried my best to take photos in similar light.<br />
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I'm surprised to see how much better my palm has gotten! I knew it did but I didn't realize how much! My hands have always been a wreck, covered in (what I thought was) eczema since I was a kid. I now know that at the beginning it was probably eczema (aka "rash caused by something but we don't know what so here's some topical steroids") but somewhere around my late teens/early twenties, it turned into topical steroid addiction. I had stopped responding to halobetasol, which is one of the strongest topical steroids, and the doctors weren't offering anything except more topical steroids.<br />
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These photos don't really show it but also the sides of my index and middle finger had the rashiness. I know that a lot of RSSers have normal palms and the fact that I didn't had me really worried I was barking up the wrong tree. But since my hands are truly ground zero and have been marinated in topical steroids of varying strengths on a regular for years and years, I should not be surprised.<br />
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<i>Via Flickr:</i><br />
Left palm - healing from topical steroid induced eczema (Red Skin Syndrome).<br />
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Visit ITSAN.org for more information on topical steroid addiction and withdrawal, side effects of long-term topical steroid use.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-10755770908685135902012-12-21T22:25:00.002-05:002012-12-21T22:25:41.784-05:00Day 225: Ouch.<br />
TSW hurts! It's itchy and it's ugly and it's oozy and it's tiring and it's discouraging...but it's also painful. This is a post I recently wrote on the ITSAN forum about it:<br />
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<li style="line-height: 17px;"><span style="border: 0px; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Scraped - This is what I feel most often and on my arms & hands especially (which are my worst parts. Have you had a really bad sunburn? Now imagine you have that really bad sunburn all over then you fall down a gravel hill then skid across the pavement.</span><span style="border: 0px; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"> My skin feels like that. I feel like I'm scraped all over, like a million tiny paper cuts cover my body.</span></li>
<li style="line-height: 17px;"><span style="border: 0px; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Sore - Especially when I have a big scratching frenzy.</span></li>
<li style="line-height: 17px;">Skin is too tight. I don't really know how to describe this but it hurts. I try to turn my head or open my mouth and I can't because the skin is so dry and tight. I guess this sort of goes with the soreness feeling. </li>
<li style="line-height: 17px;">Burning - As if you had a sunburn then soaked the raw skin in rubbing alcohol all over</li>
<li style="line-height: 17px;"><span style="border: 0px; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Zappy nerve tingles - I've had these painful zaps all over my body sporadically but I get these in my breasts regularly and they HURT! It's like an electric zap/needle jab.</span></li>
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I've been taking ibuprofen or naproxen to help with the pain. I've tried long baths, soaking in epsom salts, ACV, milk, oil, anything! I've cycled through my mosturizers -- nothing, then Vaseline, then palm oil, then non-petrol jelly, then Eucerin Healing Creme, then oil, then nothing, now back on Vaseline. I just want something that sinks in like buttah! But nothing does. I found a recipe for a homemade one with cocoa butter and shea butter so I might try whipping that up soon. </div>
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My skin is as red as it was last month, as flaky as it's always been. The itch is better than it was three months ago, but the nerve tingles are worse. I've noticed that the "itchy spots" mostly start on bony areas...like my wrists, ribs, hipbone, knee, elbow, collarbone. But even though a bony spot gets my scratching started, I defitely scratch all over!</div>
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Mostly I am just stuck. I just want my skin to stop ACHING. Even if it's not beautiful or normal, at least if it would stop hurting, that would make things easier.</div>
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Oh, well. Another day, maybe.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-26202178718004286712012-12-10T13:28:00.001-05:002013-02-20T11:43:40.185-05:007 Months of Itching!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-13942772229653557292012-12-07T12:45:00.001-05:002013-02-20T11:43:12.908-05:00Day 211: SheddingI just don't understand how my body can make this much dead skin! It seems physically impossible to lose this much skin and yet...apparently it's not.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-56134844550204637952012-12-06T21:28:00.003-05:002013-02-20T11:41:03.089-05:00Day 210 AKA 6 Months 26 DaysMy skin has not changed in a long time. I'm just stuck. I'm getting tired of this!<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-26926553682358686572012-11-19T12:07:00.001-05:002013-02-20T11:28:55.906-05:00Day 193: I Just Want To Be Pretty :(Sometimes I can't help but feel sorry for myself. My face looks bad and my skin hurts and I itch insanely and I look hideous. I feel like I can't be the person I'm meant to be or do all the things I meant to be doing right now.<br />
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I know this is just a blip in my life - a year or two out of eighty-something is nothing - but it's hard. I know this isn't the end of the world because I'll heal and I'll be better than ever and I'll appreciate things so much more...but day-to-day is hard.<br />
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I hate meeting new people because I want to say, "I didn't always look like this! I promise." I don't want people to think I don't take care of myself because that also means they think I'm lazy and dumb and I'm really not those things, I promise.<br />
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It's hard that "taking care of yourself" usually equals "wearing makeup and doing your hair nice." What I'm doing now is actually taking care of myself, but it doesn't look that way. I know there's a graduate thesis in here somewhere about gender performance and the beauty myth, but I'm too tired to write it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-5598825533894180122012-11-12T10:16:00.002-05:002012-11-12T10:16:56.553-05:00Day 186: Six Months & 2 Days!Six months!!!! (and 2 days!)<br />
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I was hoping for a big miraculous overnight changed when day 184 rolled around but alas, I am the same. My hands and ears are very dry, flaky, and red. The skin around my eyes is also red. I wish I had happier things to post but I guess this is the nature of the beast! And I should be thankful it's not worse, right?<br />
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I have noticed recently that I am scratching a lot of habit so I am going to work on that.<br />
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It's unbelievable the amount of white flakes and powder that flies off me. It's crazy.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-35133445038088721552012-11-05T22:47:00.000-05:002013-02-20T11:28:08.353-05:00Day 179: Could Be Worse, I GuessI was in a wedding over the weekend. I was at the end of my flare so my face was not very red and I wasn't too itchy. Since it was an outdoors wedding in November in Ohio, the bridesmaids wore cardigans. Thankfully! Unfortunately, the photographer had us take some photos without our cardigans so I'm sure I'll see my red red hands and arms in a wedding Facebook album soon. But I made it, wasn't too itchy or too flaky and that is all very good! In the future, I'll just look back at the pictures and be thankful I'm healed and no longer have red skin!<br />
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Sunday and Monday I've had a very very flaky face which sucks but I can deal with it. I noticed that my skin had a very bad smell, though. Those of you with TSW probably have experienced the same super awkward symptom. Sort of yeasty/metallicy/yucky. Anyway, I've noticed it before but not as intensely so I took a bath tonight with 1 c apple cider vinegar and washed with coconut oil. That is supposed to help kill bacteria. Now I don't have that weird smell so maybe it worked.<br />
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I feel like I've been perpetually flaring this whole time with times of "I'm better but still having symptoms even though they are not as intense." I know a lot of people get true breaks around 6 months and since I'm just a few days away from it, I hope I do soon!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1365465308213592219.post-24929173206156378802012-10-30T00:32:00.001-04:002013-02-20T11:26:55.495-05:00Day 173: Keep Calm and Itch On!On Wednesday, I cleaned my house for about an hour or so which made me (want to) sweat. But since I can't sweat, my skin burned instead.<br />
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On Thursday, I sat outside during lunch because it was a ridiculously beautiful day for October in Ohio. I rolled up my sweater's sleeves to give the sun a try. I wasn't in direct sun (was under a table umbrella for the most part) and I wasn't out too long. I didn't experience any burning or anything like that.<br />
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On Friday 10/26 I started having a little flare, which of course has turned into a bigger flare. I'm SO itchy! I want to blame it on either not being able to sweat or getting some sun, but the truth is: who knows?? Maybe it's one of those two things but who knows? Maybe it's because I took my vitamin or maybe it's because another day I didn't. Maybe it's because I had a cookie. Maybe it was because last week also happened to be That Time of the Month. Maybe it was because I didn't drink enough water. Maybe it's because...<br />
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Well, I could go on and on and on, but honestly, I have no idea why I started flaring again. Maybe that little bit of sun got me, maybe not. Maybe my body was just ready for its next (torturous) flare.<br />
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It's really hard to stop searching for a correlation. The truth is, there is no correlation. This just happens. And eventually it will stop happening for a bit. Then it will happen again. I don't have any control over it. All I can do is remind myself that it will go away and try not to scratch.<br />
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(Lately I haven't been too successful at the latter. But the former, I believe 100%!)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1